Rewinding

by Diehsarr

It’s happening again

Everything is rising up, to pull you down.

You tell yourself that you are okay

Only to have all the negative emotion you’ve ever felt

Crashing upon your shore.

And what can you do

But take the mental bruising it brings?

You can put up all your barriers

They may be strong enough to not fracture and break

But how can you hide from yourself?

I am what you are.

Your thoughts are running in circles

Chasing a futile trail.

Every little thing that doesn’t go the way you want it to,

Every little thing that surprises you,

Is a slight committed against yourself

By God? by the gods?

By the people who hate you? by the people who love you?

By the people you hate? by the people you love?

You don’t know.

You can say it never really began there.

You can say it’s all in your head

You can say it’s wrong to pin all your wishings,

Wishings which are for naught,

On people who don’t care,

But it doesn’t stop you from doing the inevitable

And it doesn’t stop the images from the past

From gliding forth, haunting you

Choking your mind today.

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